I promise you, they don't. In my experience, no one knows what they are doing. We're all faking it.

So many people, me included don't know what we want to do with our lives. That's normal. Things change and new passions come forward, new opportunities. Just be open and focus on doing things you enjoy.

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. Your feelings are valid. It's hard, I've been there. I think life is a rollercoaster of ups and downs. There are so many good times ahead of you.

Please find someone to talk to if you think that would help or/ and continue to write. You aren't alone.