I'm sorry for what you are feeling right now. You aren't alone. I wish there was something I could say to make it better for you, but we both know there isn't anything. Life is a freaking bitch sometimes. And sometimes we just need to be sad and cry alone in our cars while blocking the entrance to a field. During one of my "cry in the car episodes", I was asked to move by a farmer because he needed to get his tractor out of the field. That was a good moment. I'm rambling. I just want you to know, you're not alone. Better days will come. 💛