I'm the stripper - I throw all my crappy writing out there for everyone to see. If I've spent time on it, it's being published, even if I hate it. I'm cheap.
I get the being hard on yourself thing. It's pretty annoying. I don't have any advice - it's just shit.
And your grandmother sounds like mine! Mine constantly asks me when I'm getting married again - I'm not even divorced. Family and societal pressure make it a hard topic to talk about. I feel a lot of things about only having one child and my time running out - it's way too real to talk or write about. I don't know why I'm telling you, maybe I want you to know you're not alone in feeling that not want to talk about it thing. 💛