Wow! I'm so sorry that you went through this. Goodness. There is a lot here. I can identify with a lot of what you said and I understand the merry-go-round, the embarrassment, the silent screaming, the not wanting a failed marriage, and the walking away without even realizing it at first.

I'm glad you've found happier days and yes, fuck Amway!!!

I hope your stepdaughter comes around. I have a suspicion she will.